Since that day, i was switched to the deadly silence mode.
The conversation between my higher self and my conscious mind become more clearer then before. All the way i go through from the silent me(few year back), to the confident me, lost , relationship, again crush with another relationship, and now, back to the original position.
Lots of thing i did learn, i know about desire, i learn about fate, i learn to be ego, and i learn to be un-ego , i learn about religion, i learn about philosophy, and new age.

And if our world is consist of a lots of linear time line, then how would i become in another time line? Is this all i choose to be in this time line? As a geek. Or it's a fate that i already program to run all this command that had already code by THE PROGRAMMER.

If this is the only time line, is there any possible for me to know my future in advance, any worm holes there for me to jump back to my previous time, to prepare my self for all these.

Buddha said that if we can let go of our desire, we can be away from pain, but how to do it?

No pain no gain, but where is my gain?

I meditate all the time, but i never reach the silent in my heart even i already become so silent from outside.

I try to capture my memory from different angle, but none of these angle that make me look better.(Photography)

Law of attraction, base on my current situation, non positive, non negative, non neutral, what will i possibly to attract? Is it i will attract lots of question...?

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I have so many question about my life, about myself....Anything, tomorrow will be another day,hopefully tonight i may get some answer from my subconscious from my dream....
Hope this will be my turning point but not the dead end.